Thread:Yapby/@comment-5906087-20150430100630/@comment-5906087-20150430135945

Yes, I understand. I will forego my favourite units to follow the meta. I will forego fun to be accepted by the others. I will stop obsessing over units and be lonely. Because if I remain as myself, I will continue to be hated by everyone.

I'm sorry if I sound sarcastic, but I'm not. While in this chat, I'm not allowed to be myself. I obsess over units in any game, and I always insist on using my ways to play. It is who I am, you can ask my friends about me.

For example, in Vanguard. I asked for help in building a Battle Siren deck. Since I never built a Battle Siren deck ( before, I had to ask for help, but Battle Sirens are a support type of cards, not meant to be a main build.  Of course most people say 'don't use it' or advice other deck builds for the Battle Sirens to support.  I refused, like I refused 'neither' when I asked about the unit to equip the sphere.  And similarly, they start to hate me.  BUT, one person decided to help me, and built a Battle Siren deck.  Theoretically, it shouldn't work.  But I played it and it worked for me.  I trusted my feelings and that person trusted me, and thanks to that, I have a working deck that I feel connected to.

The argument involving the Cursed Robe sphere which led to this is no different. Except this time, I was banned first before I had any help. Thankfully the Brave Frontier steam group is more open, and now Elza is holding the sphere. If only this chat would be more open like those members of the steam group that helped me, like that person who built the Battle Siren deck, we would not be in this kind of situation.

(I accept that I'm banned from my obsessions, but I don't think it'll ever go away)

Maybe I should just not come into the chat again (maybe once just to talk to you in private). I'll continue updating my profile page (I use it to keep track of my units) so let me continue editing my profile.